indeo3

i don't know
i don't know
i don't know

what is wrong with me.

i have lost all control i ever had.

i want to cry. but i won't
i feel so lost. and alone.
and out of touch.

http://users.snip.net/~gbooker/resource-list.pdf

Don't give up what you want most, for what you want at the moment.

still at 116.
been busy with school and everything for the last few weeks.
i feel so out of control with my life, i need control again.

Got back to 114.5 today, I am going away this weekend and can do lots of shopping, so I'm going to be 112 by then.

Got very drunk last night, most fun and sociable I've been in ages, which has made me a feel a bit better, from all the depressive feelings lately.

Back up to 118. I've been away, done no exercise and ate lots of crap all week.
I'm looking forward to getting back into a routine next week.

I've drank so much less water for the last 2 weeks and my skin is horrible. Yuck.

I am determined to reach 112 this month.

Cons

-Been feeling really depressed for the last few months, but it has got a lot worse over the past 2 weeks, and I don't know why I feel this way.

-Saw 2 people who always comment on my weight, and I know I lost over 6 pounds since the last time I saw both, but neither even commented this time.

-Boyfriend.

-Haven't had much time to work out at all.

-Going on holiday next week, my family shall be watching me lots.

Pros

+I found clothes that stopped fitting me 4 years ago because I was too big, and now they fit loosely again.

+I have dropped down another dress size (although now all my clothes look really baggy!).

+Currently at 116, so much closer to 112 now, I know I can do it!!!



I guess I just have to focus on the positive things to get me through.
My aim is indeo3, feel free to add me for support/motivation or just to talk.

Having one of those days where people just piss me off to the max the whole time.

day 4
Food 2/2
Water 2/2
Exercise 2/2
Post 0/2
Challenge 0/2

day 5
Food 0/2
Water 0/2
Exercise 1/2
Post 2/2
Challenge 2/2


36/50

day 2
Food 0/2
Water 2/2
Exercise 2/2
Post 0/2
Challenge 2/2

day 3
Food 1/2
Water 2/2
Exercise 2/2
Post 2/2
Challenge 2/2

so far: 25/30

Just weighed myself, I'm still just under 118, which means I've lost 2 pounds in the last week.
Hopefully it continues next week... =D

Since this will be a new week, I have decided on just eating fruit, veg & soup.
I know I can get to the gym for the next 3 days at least, and probably more after that.

I want to get to 116 by Saturday, as I am seeing a certain family member who ALWAYS comments on my weight.

Had a great day, I have had lots of music over the past 2 days which has kept me really busy, although I haven't had time to do lots of exercise, and have been feeling a bit drained.

Just weighed myself and am under 118 for the first time!! :D

Today was just rubbish

Did lots of exercise, but ate too much crap.

Just signed up to thedailyplate.com though, it's amazing!

Day one of 28dayplan.
Had a fairly good day, managed to not eat and only drink water.
Also spent an hour in the gym.

Day was good until I got home & online.
I saw a forum where my boyfriend posted about there being "no good looking girls" where we live.
I know I'm not attractive, but it still hurts, mostly because it shows he is looking at other girls all the time too. I wouldn't really care that he does this, for as long as I didn't know/find out about it.

I'm new to this whole thing but here goes:

I have always been overweight, and the chubby, ugly, shy, nice girl.
I am a total pushover, and feel like everything I have ever done has always been to please someone else, I never do anything just for me.
I have been feeling a bit depressed for the last few months, I have "everything I could ever want", but I still don't feel happy and don't understand why.
I always wanted to be thinner, so I am going to try, perhaps it may even make me feel a bit happier if I achieve it.

Height: 5'3
Current Weight: 120
Target Weight: 112

I hope to reach my target weight by the end of April.